Super duper!

Super moon! Sometimes just a sight fills me with gratitude! I left the birthday party of two spectacular friends early this evening feeling loved and supported from familiar faces and unexpected ones as well. This was the view on the ride home. 

Thankful tonight for beauty in the world around me and for the women who keep me strong!

Where'd those come from?

Today, I grew a pair! 

...or...maybe I got mad or sad or frustrated enough to stand up for me. Same thing, right?

I gave myself worth is what is really important. I often wait-for reaction, response, or just for the first move. Today I made a move! And it crushed me and it hurts but I was standing up for myself and what I deserve.

Today I am grateful for the gym and what it allows me to do mentally and physically. I am also forever grateful to Morgan for always having encouraging words and supporting me through everything! When all else fails she is there!

Feeling new..

I've had some time, and been forced in some cases, to take a look around and within these past few days! 

Something that I know and believe but fail to practice most of the time is self love. I am my worst critic and am usually the first to let you know my faults and everything wrong about me. 

A shallow but quick start happens by looking in the mirror. A wedding planning meeting yesterday kicked my motivation into gear and got me excited about using my skills and putting them on display. Today I got an overdue haircut, put on make-up to run errands, found a dress for the wedding an generally felt beautiful!!

This evening I got a jump on the visual plan of the food so that others will be able to follow and help out! I did the math to stretch the recipes for the huge guest list and I started the shopping list.

Flipping back through "The Happiness Project" which I read a few years ago I made a list of some reminders and strategies to increase happiness. I think it will help my awareness to check these things daily and keep a gratitude journal to remember what's really important and try to be more positive.

I have been miserable, not only inside but outwardly people have felt it and relationships have suffered. I need to change and I need change.

Ironic...

..but not really.

To randomly find myself back here, filled with thoughts, and unsure of how to express them, one year exactly from my last post.

Words that I have shared, part of me that I have given so freely in the past, haunt me today. I have come to fear the expression that I have so many times taken for granted.

A past that I left so long ago is revived and is cause for discussion, contemplation and conflict.

A recurring question, asked once again..impatience awaits a decision. But how to choose?

Punishment, between friends torn apart for the wrong reasons.