Wavering spirit..

I was all for Christmas. I was ready for my first big paycheck. My plans included nothing other than cooking, sharing, and cutting/decorating my own Christmas tree. I thought I saw the light but I still can't catch up. Out the window went my thoughts of Christmas trees, decorations, twinkling lights. Down the drain went the plans for gifts I wanted to give and food I wanted to share. I hate this feeling. I'm struggling. I'm up and I'm down. I find the positive but quickly it is lost. I find it hard to spend time with friends because I feel like I can't keep up my share. I'm tired.

But then I see things like this..

and I remember it's not all that important.